It was always in you

“Whomever you become, whatever you make yourself into, that is who you always were. It was always in you.” Wow. The more I read Educated: A Memoir, the faster I read. It was like Tara Westovers’s words only baited my appetite, instead of sating it. Her word choice, story arc, and subject matter all swirled together, and by the end, I was reacting out loud to each turn of the memoir. ⁣

There were also some lovely nuggets nestled on those pages, like this quote. I love this one. It makes me think of personal evolution and finding consistency in the story of our lives. Sometimes, in this season of life, when I am a stay-at-home-mom, I feel dissociated from who I was before, a person I would have described as driven and career-oriented. Not in a million years would I have guessed I’d spend my 30s as a homemaker. Like a lot of women, I did not expect to stay home with my kids until I did. At first, this desire to stay home felt confusing, and I had trouble making sense of it. But, as I sat with it, I came to realize that that wish was consistent with my values of family and finding balance in life. Staying home, right now, was an intentional choice and a way to live out some of my long-held values. What have you been surprised to discover was in you all along?⁣

Whomever you become, whatever you make yourself into, that is who you always were. It was always in you

Published by Emily P.G. Erickson

Emily P.G. Erickson is a writer with a master's degree in psychology. She crafts thoughtful, compassionate essays about culture, mental health, mindfulness, and motherhood. Her writing has appeared in Scary Mommy, Motherly, Motherwell, and more. You can find the latest from Emily at

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