Create things just for yourself

Words repeat in my head. I think of a bounce house. Up and down. Up and down. Against the sides and back again. Eventually they need to come out. So I write. Fingers tap on a keyboard or conduct a pen. The words are unsteady to start. They can’t quite stand after all that bouncing. After a while, they start to become more fluid and upright. They make sense. They look like who they are. I push them along with my gray keys or blue Papermate. March march march. I am bewitched. I can’t see out the sides of my eyes. I only see them. Only feel them moving through me. It is good to feel them and not myself.


But when you ask me to write for you. I only see you. Your ideas about me. About the words. Your face when you read them. I fixate on your face and the words blur and wobble.


This is why I can’t write for you.


I have to write for me.



create things just for yourself

Published by Emily P.G. Erickson

Emily P.G. Erickson is a writer with a master's degree in psychology. She crafts helpful, science-backed pieces that come straight from the heart. Her writing about mental health, mindfulness, and motherhood has appeared in The New York Times, Elemental, Forge, and more.

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