How I’m Adapting A Concept From Exposure Therapy To Help Me Set Boundaries At Work


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Saying no at work feels a bit like cliff diving — something I hear can be rewarding, but, wow, it seems risky.

I think declining professional offers is particularly difficult for me because, to do it, I have to wade through a whole heap of anxiety. As a freelancer, I’m afraid that if I say no now, I won’t get more work later. I worry that colleagues won’t like me as much, and that I’ll alienate my network

And yet, saying no at work is something I need to do. After all, I have a life outside of work. And as my freelance writing career progresses, sometimes I have more work offers than I can reasonably take on. I’ve got to set aside people-pleasing and ambition and get real with my limits.

To support boundary setting, I’ve started tracking the big no’s: major projects I’ve declined to take on. After I screw my courage to the sticking place and dash off the email, I open a digital document and log my victory. It’s called “Work I’ve Declined,” and it gets longer all the time.

This list-making is a type of self-administered exposure therapy, a kind of targeted learning used in mental health therapy. In exposure therapy, you see through experience that you can feel and be safe in the face of what once provoked fear, according to the American Psychological Association. A leading clinical guide notes that exposure therapy has been used to successfully treat anxiety disorders, including generalized anxiety, OCD, PTSD, and phobias.

In this case, I’m adapting exposure techniques to teach myself that it’s safe to say no at work. I can handle what happens when I say no.

Like formal exposure therapy, this process has stirred up anxiety, especially at first. It’s way easier in the moment to close my eyes through the scary parts and not pay attention. To say no and never think about it again. But when I block myself like that, I also block the opportunity to learn. I interrupt the possibility that things could be different next time.

Things are starting to change. It’s getting easier to say no when I need to. It feels a little less like falling each time.

There are other benefits, too. The list helps me notice what I’m doing so I can better see what’s really going on. My log is evidence that my skills are in-demand. It’s proof that I’m growing personally, as well. It’s become a way of giving myself credit and a tool for paying attention. In other words, this exposure therapy hack turns out to be another way to practice mindfulness.

Of course, it’s not all zen. Sometimes I still feel like I’m crawling out of my skin. Like an alien might burst out of me, grab my laptop, and scream-type “YES. I WILL ABSOLUTELY TAKE THIS ON.” But, so far, I’ve kept myself together. I’m trying to re-interpret the internal itchiness as affirmation I’m stretching in new ways, not as a warning I’m about to explode.

I think a lot of growth comes down to tolerating discomfort so you can get to the point of payoff. Unlike those cliff divers, I don’t expect I’ll take a big leap anytime soon. But it feels good to say that I’m moving forward with open eyes.

You can find a version of this essay on Medium here

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Published by Emily P.G. Erickson

Emily P.G. Erickson is a freelance writer specializing in mental health and parenting. She has written for popular digital publications, including Everyday Health, Health, The New York Times, Parents, Romper, WIRED, and more. Emily is a professional member of the American Society of Journalists and Authors (ASJA) and the Association of Health Care Journalists (AHCJ). Previously, Emily researched PTSD for the U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs and earned a master's in psychology. You can find the latest from Emily at www.emilypgerickson.com.

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