It may seem like I should be comfortable writing about this pregnancy by now, but the truth is I still feel like I am tempting fate every time I talk about it. Still, I am trying to hold space for that fear. And excitement. And gratitude. And grief. So that’s what I wrote about. I hope this essay resonates with anyone who is trying to move forward with authenticity after one of life’s curveballs.
When I thought about what I would write about for my bi-monthly spot in Pregnancy After Loss Support’s publishing calendar, my mind flashed back to something a doctor said to me right before an important ultrasound. She said, “A uterus is a potential space.” It’s an interesting way to talk about an organ but I think the reason the moment came to me wasn’t because of biology.
I feel so lucky to get to tell you that I have joined the team at Pregnancy After Loss Support as a magazine contributor. They asked if I would be willing to write about my experience trying to conceive after my miscarriage last year. I’m honored that my writing will have the opportunity to connect with parents looking for help processing the complexity of life after loss.
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